Privilege Card??

i got this from bigB today.... he asked if i go to some few restaurants stated in the brochure.. *eyebrows raised*.. my heart went "no lor, how can i afford??".. he asked me to take the card.. with this card, parking is free.. can save on the fee.. and my heart went -_-"" WT..??

took the card, turned behind.. no wonder he gave me la.. validity oni 1 month.. but i wont be using it anyway.. i nid $$$ to be able to use tt.. y muz i purposely spend more of $$ to be able to use more of tt?? hahaha...

~the dreamer
(*sunny*)

26岁的我

人活着是要有梦想，要有目标。这样,人生才会过的更精彩！
您的梦想是设么？您的人生目标又时设么呢？

从小，我都有许多梦想。
还记得在我10岁时，我的梦想是当个飞机师。
穿着制服，飞在空中，多有形啊！

很快，13岁了。上了中学。
我当时的目标就是把自己的学业做得更好。

到了16岁，我的人生第一个春天来咯！
那时候，爱情是我生命中里最重要的。
飞机师的梦想也渐渐的被遗忘。
不是应为爱情，而是自己没能力去实现自己的梦想。
除了学业和爱情，我从没想过我的将来。

直到我18岁时，我爸开始不停的提醒，“是时候想想你的将来了”。
我挣扎了很久。在我爸的协助之下，我选择了IT这系。
不过我还是没变。18岁的选择只是个选择。
我还是没为我的将来作出设么努力。

在我19岁那年，春天已结束了。
那年真的是不好受。难受到想把一切一切也都结束掉。
从那年开始，唯一让我呼吸的理由就是我父母。

我就快21岁的早4天，爸爸离开了我。
突然觉得眼前一切都没了。
脑海里不停的问自己。。。。。。
“我的将来怎么办？”
“我快要生日了，爸爸对我的承诺，怎么办？”
“我快要毕业了，爸爸没办法看到，怎么办？”
“我和妈妈将来如何继续过没有爸爸的生活？”
“我和妈妈的生活费要怎么处理？”
还有许多许多问题。
这一切比19岁的难受还要痛苦千万倍。

当爸爸离开了，我才发现，自己是如此的依赖他。
责怪自己从没真真的去了解爸爸。
也更恨自己从没告诉过爸爸我有多爱他。
这，是我生命中最大的遗憾，也是我没机会弥补的错误。

5年已过了。
我也在工作了。
虽然念的是IT，工作的可是不一样。与IT没什么关系。

在这5年里。。。
有起有落，有是有非，有真有假，喜怒哀乐，生离死别。
所有的酸甜苦辣，我都尝试过了。
认识了设么是面具。
认识了设么是道具。
认识了设么是人情。
认识了设么是亲情。
认识了设么是友情。

应为认识了太多，我已经不敢再有梦想了。
我常担心。担心自己没那么幸运。
所有的期望，希望，都常被我的悲观而战胜。
自从爸爸离开了，我的人生不再有设么梦想或目标。
我觉得我原本都已缺少的自信心和悲观都变得更糟。

我的将来还是一张白纸，一片空白。
常觉得自己没那么幸运的我还是让命运去注定我的一切。

26岁的我并不是很快乐。
不知道我下一年又会如何。
就只能希望一切都能够顺顺利利的。。。



~the dreamer
(*晴*)

Mr Froggie

saw any difference?

hahaha.. this frog is often caught enjoying standing next to his 'toy'..

~the dreamer
(*sunny*)

Fatty's Birthday

today is my fatty's birthday.. did not really celebrate.. juz bought him a slice of tiramisu..

~the dreamer
(*sunny*)

Moldy Bun

i was craving for food.. not tt i didn't had my dinner but juz some crave.. realized tt i still had left 2 buns, decided to eat it all up wif a cup of coffee..

the buns was to expire on 23 Oct, so i tried to gobbled all up.. not till the 2nd bun did i realized.. OMG! it's oredi start to spread mold! hahaha... but i had no idea if the 1st bun is covered wif mold too.. hohoho.. anyway, no harm done.. no diarrhea.. thankfully!

fatt mou lorr...

moldy moldy

up close on moldy..

~the dreamer
(*sunny*)

Horse Painting

went to Sunway Pyramid for dinner..

in conjunction with FEI 5 KL Grand Prix 2007, The One Academy students are painting horses.. very nice n pretty...

those horses are really very nicely painted..

each horses are handled by a few people..

up close on one of the horses

gold and black horse

pretty horsies..

~the dreamer
(*sunny*)

Smiley Cloud

my new creation... Ms Smiley Cloud...

will this put a smile to your face?

~the dreamer
(*sunny*)

DEAD BODY

look wat i found on my desk... a DEAD BODY!

no idea wat insect is tis.. doesn't look like a fly..


i keep flipping its body to take closer pic.. hehe...


anyone know wat is tis?


sob sob... "i'm dead"

~the dreamer
(*cloudy*)

Colourful Cocktail

during the trip to langkawi.. mom insisted to buy these colourful cocktail.. well, whenever she goes langkawi, she will fully utilized the benefits of the duty free island.. never once back home empty handed without any alcoholic beverage..

sigh.. she does not buy it for drink.. she get it for either the bottles or the colours..

but i do quite like this one... the colours are so nice.. :P

cantik kan?


i'm so in love with these colours..

~the dreamer
(*rainbow*)

Raya in Langkawi

i went to langkawi during the first day of raya.. to visit my grandparents, uncles and aunties..

took the evening flight there.. cheapest of the day.. came back on the 4th day morning cheapest flight.. hahaha.. save cost...

it wasn't a fun trip coz it was rather boring for me.. i spent my 2nd day sleeping due to headache... aunt n cousin nid to went back shop to help grandpa.. so left me n mom alone on the 3rd day.. went walking around town to look for the cheapest Bailey's upon request by jerry.. oso walked around town, hi & lo for Sport's Cappuccino chocolate.. was so upset when i couldn't find it.. went visiting relatives after tt.. 4th day, woke up early morning.. packed & ready to go..

kl city from the plane taken by mom


view from my cousin's room


uncle's home


persistent me & shy aunt


grandpa's hidden pumpkin


bye bye langkawi taken by mom

~the dreamer
(*sunny*)

Candyman

went candy shopping for my favorite cousin... he always asks me to bring him special candies when i go back langkawi..

sigh... it's so hard to search for one during last minutes.. but i still managed to get few imported chewing gums for him..

oh... i got candy too!

surprise from my candyman.. :P

~the dreamer
(*dreamy*)

A "Banting" Afternoon

after more than 2 months of planning, me frens & i decided to travel all the way to Banting to try out the famous "Beggar's Chicken". i went there once many, many years ago.. dad brought mom & i to tried it.. but it was so many years ago, i cant remember how's it like anymore..

and although it's oredi past a month n half, i was still being treated free lunch as a belated birthday meal.. kam sia very much dearies...

it's a hot sunday noon at Jalan Bukit Jugra, Banting

here we are at 丐帮名菜叫化餐厅, to eat Banting's famous
"Beggar's Chicken" aka Hak Yi Kai or Kiu Fa Kai (叫化鸡)

Jason (Ah Xian from 阿贤人情味) was here..


here's our menu... all are very yummy!
i personally like the rice & the soup..


after 6 dishes of meat.. we decided to order an additional green
for digestions.. hahahaha....


the nicer view.....

look whose head is poppin' out yo.....

ta-da.... a mud-skipper!
it came closer for me to take a better picture..

it loves me camera...

gahhh.... it said buh-bye & skipped away..

we went Superbowl, Banting after lunch..
i sux at bowling... hahaha... i was the lowest score for 1st game..

Our next trip will be in November.. destination would most probably be Sg Buloh, this time to taste "Pun Choy" (how to translate a?) hahaha...


~the dreamer
(*sunny*)

Another Belated Bday Present

i had a blardy frust morning from OB.. was busy the whole day.. by the time i get home, i'm a lil' tired..

i went bathing this evening at about 7pm.. came down to find my mom shouting to me "surprise!" holding the bouquet and he, sitting there too.. but i knew it's not from him.. coz our anniversary juz passed, my bday's over, he cant possibly send me flowers for his own bday, dun think he's even proposing...

he n mom kept asking who's "vincent teh"... of all surname, they mention 'teh'.. and it gave me a strong feeling, it's not from a guy... hahahaha.. correcto! it's from a good fren of mine from college.. i shall call her mama 'teh'.. hahaha..

hahaha.. ever since i knew her, she tried getting piggies for my bday every year... this year is an exception.. but still like it lot..

flowers & the packaging cantik a..

ta da.... the necklace..

had fun taking photos actually.. hehehe..

it's a bird... it's a bug... yay, it's a butterfly!
lame me.. hahaha.. i think it's pinky shell like material..

~the dreamer
(*sunny*)