Heart Broken

it had been the hardest week for me since dad's gone..
going to lose my mind soon... i juz want it to have a conclusion soon..
no idea how long more i can take it..........
juz when i tot things are getting smooth... it ended up being a disaster..
i'm hoping for miracle to happen despite all the objections..
i dunno wat else i can do... i dunno how will it be in the coming days..
i wish it can be over soon.. i really hoping for miracle..
god to u i pray, i pray there's a miracle soon.. there's a solution soon..
please grant a miracle to solve it for the last time..
i hope... it's the last time... i really hope... really hope so desperately..
very desperately......
pa.. pls help me too... for the last time.. as i promised..


《回到過去》
词：刘耕宏 曲：周杰伦 编曲：林迈可

一盏黄黄旧旧的灯 / 时间在旁闷不吭声
寂寞下手毫无分寸 / 不懂得轻重之分
沉默支撑跃过陌生 / 静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影 / 失去平衡 / 慢慢下沉

黑暗已在空中盘旋 / 该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端 / 无法存活在真实的空间

Chorus
想回到过去 / 试著抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你的看的世界 / 想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜
想回到过去 / 试著让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意 / 这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知 / 还来不来得及

想回到过去
思绪不断阻挡著回忆播放
盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁

Repeat Chorus
沉默支撑跃过陌生 / 静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影 / 失去平衡 / 慢慢下沉
想回到过去


~the dreamer
(*losing*)

Lotus for Dad

the 7th lunar month is juz around the corner... mom asked me to make some paper lotus to burn for dad's DA.. i'll make it twice a year.. once during 'cheng beng', another time dad's DA.. 2009, it's the 7th year since he's gone... i still miss him.. always do.. always will... i miss living around his love.. i miss having him around.. i miss him giving me advices.. i miss his nagging.. i miss his jokes.. i miss his protection.. i miss his guardian.. if only he is still around...

the prayer paper i used to make the lotus

ta-da.. hehe.. not so nice.. it's a bit hard to fold it up.. i dun have delicate fingers.. nid to fold it wif care so it wont tear..

lotus no. 1... 8 more to go...

~the dreamer
(*speechless*)

De-Stressing Nite Out

janice called for girls-nite out aka de-stressing nite out.. i was down wif flu, cough n slight fever, but i was itching for alcohol :P in fact, it was supposed to be a sleepover but due to my condition, i preferred goin home after alcohol.. it was indeed a fun nite.. but i slept thru my saturday n sunday after tt.. hehehe...

janice killed mr spongebob squarepants to de-stress i guess...
hahahahaha...

we started the nite out by having dinner at rakuzen, desapark city..

my sukiyaki pot & beef... yummy..

we drove past zouk twice, went thru the heritage, make an almost illegal u-turn before deciding to stop at poppy wif a bottle of barcardi lemon for the nite.. it was more of a "high" nite rather than drunk...
the girls started singing all sorts of songs, including the secondary skool song in the car even before we reach poppy.. well, we ended up also singing in the car all the way home.. de-stressing indeed :D

~the dreamer
(*high*)