Hectic Morning

what a hectic morning.. things juz keep coming non-stop.. my eyes are so tire.. feel like sleeping oredi.. but i still have work to be completed.. i'm tired.. i wanna sleep... arrrggghhh....

am very excited coz Project M will come to an end next week.. M is marrying next Sunday... and the bridesmaid dresses are all done.. will be collecting it tomoro.. looking at my fren's pic, she look so beautiful in tt dress... not pretty, not cute but beautiful.. like an angel as she said..

i have to go shoe hunting, necklace hunting, earrings hunting... ohhh... i nid a long shopping day!! dunno how to plan now... and the hairstlye.... arrrrggghhh... like i'm the one marrying... kakakaka.. the bride will be having nervous breakdown pretty pretty soon.. wahahaha.. me oso stress la... coz diet havent been any successful... hahahaha... sigh.. hope things go well tomoro..


~the dreamer

What a day!

woke up at almost 11am today.. felt lazy to wash my clothes after a good sleep.. but think twice, i might get to sleep more on sunday.. so went out to get mcD.. wanted to get the chicken foldover, skip the fries and the soft drink, but.. i was there at the drive-thru at 11.20am.. they're not selling the regular menu yet.. sigh... had to get the mcD breakfast.. ordered the mcSausage muffin set (burger, harshbrown and coffee).. but, when i get the foods, i overheard those waiters got their order "regular menu starting now"... i was like "shit.. i should have get my morning paper b4 mcD"!! anyway, no choice.. went back to get paper, saw bakery, get a bun, went home, start eating..

i started my laundry at 12.30pm, a bit late but the sky is still bright.. quickly do all the washing, hopefully the sun will wait for me... Ding! Dong! went to open the door.. uncle K dropped by after work.. stopped my laundry and chat wif him till bout 2pm.. sigh.. the sky no longer bright and shiny... =( then.. i found, my "smart" dog, Rocky, bit my mom's 3pcs of RM10.. shit.. all torn into pcs... whack him on his head, scolded him and screamed him into his cage.. continued my laundry under the drizzling rain.. then the thunder and lighting started to roar.. sigh.. have to move all my clothes up into the room to hang dry... aarrgghh..

hhmm.. okay.. enuff of grumbling.. gtg get ready, bro n his family are visiting and i'm still all sweaty..



this is how rocky torn the money into pcs



hehe.. playing money puzzle..



~the dreamer

Menses Sensed

as expected.. tummy cramp.. i sensed it coming.. quickly pop in 1 panadol.. but sucks.. too late for it... it was so torturing.. cant stand or sit.. i ended up vomitting my lunch.. felt better after tt.. the cramp lessens but it's still there.. took a nap on my desk, ignoring all my colleagues.. and thank goodness boss and his wife is not in.. ho ho ho... i'm up and feeling good..

tummy feeling better.. but the blood dripping is so uncomfortable.. counting back.. i've been donating my blood every month for 16 years!! sigh.. i lost so much blood and yet i'm still so fat and heavy... too much of toxic i guess..

hardly touch my job this afternoon.. no energy and out of mood.. chat wif colleagues and frens.. and decided to blog a bit.. lucky thing tt i'll not be that heavy by this saturday.. will be clubbing wif a group of frens.. bachelorettes nite out for Miss M.. looking forward to tt.. another nite out, another drinking session..


~the dreamer

Sensing Menses

me in office now.. all the bones and muscles are so lazy to move.. the boss is not back yet, thus, i continued lazying around.. as usual, he nv tells when he'll be back, so i'll enjoy as much as i can..

so bored.. feeling so cold and uncomfortable.. i think it's tt time of the month again.. shit.. y am i a woman? let me be a guy in my next life!! woman is troublesome.. so so troublesome.. have to go thru all the hassle every month.. those who're lucky, no tummy cramp, sore breast, headache.. i've heard some even vomit.. well, i do vomit sometimes too.. see? haii.. was it because i'm weak? or was it because i'm diagnose with some kind of sick? or was it because i dun have enough exercises? haha...

i remembered i was in singapore, many years back.. a relative of mine brought me to see this sinseh (believed to be famous.. can't even recall his name now..) and consulted him on my menses prb.. hehe.. he said i'm healthy but oni weaker as a lady, tt's y i always have tummy cramp, backache everymonth.. i was like, yea, no nid tell me oso i know i'm weak la.. and he gave me these chinese herbs to bring home.. have to boil it.. yucks.. chinese medicines are yuckie yucks.. but i oni had it twice and no more.. haha..

i've heard a lot of remedies to stop the cramps.. famously, panadol.. this is my speedy painkiller.. i'll take this if i happen to have the cramp in office or whenever the cramps take too long to heal (i can continuosly cramp for 3 hours.. till i surrender to panadol.. haha..).. of coz, it is not encourage to consume too much.. i sometimes worried too, whether will it affect my fertility in future.. hehe.. no good no good.. but this is my only cure and prevention.. at least, for me..

there was once, my mom bought me a lot of those chinese pills "pak fong yun".. 1 bottle, many cute little baby pills.. i hate tt.. it should be consumed before and after the menses.. but i cannot stand the smell and having to swallow all the kecik-kecik pills.. i wasted many boxes of tt.. kena scolded by mom when she was cleaning the cupboard.. hohoho...

another one, 'pak zhan'.. another chinese medication.. dark black soup.. u can add in eggs if u like.. tt one oso smelly, but i can stand la.. beware, u will vomit if u drink it when it's cold.. hahahaha..

there's 1 remedy i have yet to try but it can be found all over the internet.. which is the evening primrose pills.. dunno if it's good but i've got no intention to try it.. hehe.. i hate having to swallow pills.. so yuckie yuck..

oh boy... it's still so early.. hope i won't get my cramps this time.. sometimes, mayb once or twice in a year, i wont have the cramps.. dunno y.. i hope this time i wont too.. it is so suffering.. haii.. y am i a woman....?


~the dreamer

Rojak Entry

juz went over a fren's blog.. saw her bday pics.. glad tt she's happy over tt side of the world.. i'm always envy how come my frens get to go overseas but i dun.. hhmm.. =/ well, tough luck.. at the same time, feeling bad.. i promised her a bday present last year.. bought it but did not manage to send it.. and this year, i dare not mention but i promised myself i muz make it up for her.. sigh.. i really have a bad habit.. this year i'm definitely late.. but i hope she still like the gifts...

i'm obviously not tryin hard enuff to putting off this heavy weight.. sux.. i juz luv to eat so much... hahaha.. each time he looks for me.. sure i'll ask him to bring me out for food!! gosh... really really have to put in more effort.. =P

had a busy week at work.. but still did not manage to finish wat i've planned to finish this week.. i'm so not organize.. well, i dunno how to be organize.. hahaha... work is a bore.. each day it's so hard to drag myself to work... and when work, juz cant wait the time for home..

now tt i'm home.. i feel so sleepy... i think i'll surf a bit and get my sleep.. hahaha... nitieniteee..

~ the dreamer

Pictures

i'm so free tonite.. he's outstation.. mom's pampering her flowers and plants... i've got nothing much to do.. went to yk's website to download some pics.. pics from 2 occasions, 1 is a fren's promotion bbq and another is frens' joint bday karaoke... looking at those pics.. i kinda miss them.. i mean having fun together.. =)

i used to hate taking pics but now i find it... it's a very nice and memorable way of keep everyone together... sometimes when i'm sad.. i'll juz go thru my pics drive... looking at those pics.. those memories come flashing back to me 1 by 1... though we may have lost contacts, though we may not always see each other.. those pics.. are really precious to me..

i'm a reserved type of person.. i'm nv the initiator.. but i'm tryin hard now to be more open and cheerful.. i'm always feeling lonely and left out.. but i'm really glad tt though i seldom contact my frens, they still remember me.. sometimes of coz they wanted a favor from me.. but i'm glad tt they remember me when they nid tt particular favor.. especially m, i nv tot tt she would contact me and give me the honour to help her out in her wedding.. and to all my girl frens.. they are all ears to me when i nid them to listen.. i really appreciate it.. though i may not say it out.. but i do really glad to have them as frens..

frens are so important.. no matter for joy or for sadness...


~ the dreamer

Why me la...

no idea y but it has to be me.. i am definitely not important in T, how come i have to do most of the stuffs? HS, find me.. IT, find me.. appt, find me.. eng dept, find me.. pur dept, find me.. see doc, find me.. telephone line out, find me.. throw rubbish, find me.. make tea, find me.. trainings, find me.. S-meeting oso find me!! how come i'm involve in everything?? $$ like peanut but work have to BSBH (hokkien-bao sua bao hai).. this is not the right way.. this is not how to save cost! i'm oni 1 person.. how come it has to be me? even prod stuffs they oso find me.. wtf! though everything is minor minor but when u add it all up is a major!! how can i cope?? when i dun get things done on time, the blame is on me.. how come they nv think it's their problem as well?? all so F! how come i dun get to have a more focus job? i'm beginning to feel like a rubbish dump.. dumping all to me... 8 more months.. and tt's it... 8 more months, F!

~the dreamer

Wedding - Project M

oh dear... juz got a news from a fren.. we will tailor-made our bride's maid dress.. and i have like, less than 2 months time to weight down... =( gosh... i hope i'll look good... hahaha.. i dunwan to look fat!! gotta get rid of those flabby arms and big fat tummy! yeeech! though me not the bride.. me still wanna look good! hahaha.. well well... let's see when will be our next meeting.. we've found a tailor.. i guess it will be soon... =) tt's a good news..

~ the dreamer

Be A Dreamer

Reach for the sun, in all you do...
Dream big dreams, then make them come true...


but i'm running out of time...
where is my dream?
what... is my dream?



~ the dreamer