Heart Broken

it had been the hardest week for me since dad's gone..
going to lose my mind soon... i juz want it to have a conclusion soon..
no idea how long more i can take it..........
juz when i tot things are getting smooth... it ended up being a disaster..
i'm hoping for miracle to happen despite all the objections..
i dunno wat else i can do... i dunno how will it be in the coming days..
i wish it can be over soon.. i really hoping for miracle..
god to u i pray, i pray there's a miracle soon.. there's a solution soon..
please grant a miracle to solve it for the last time..
i hope... it's the last time... i really hope... really hope so desperately..
very desperately......
pa.. pls help me too... for the last time.. as i promised..


《回到過去》
词：刘耕宏 曲：周杰伦 编曲：林迈可

一盏黄黄旧旧的灯 / 时间在旁闷不吭声
寂寞下手毫无分寸 / 不懂得轻重之分
沉默支撑跃过陌生 / 静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影 / 失去平衡 / 慢慢下沉

黑暗已在空中盘旋 / 该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端 / 无法存活在真实的空间

Chorus
想回到过去 / 试著抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你的看的世界 / 想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜
想回到过去 / 试著让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意 / 这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知 / 还来不来得及

想回到过去
思绪不断阻挡著回忆播放
盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁

Repeat Chorus
沉默支撑跃过陌生 / 静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影 / 失去平衡 / 慢慢下沉
想回到过去


~the dreamer
(*losing*)

Lotus for Dad

the 7th lunar month is juz around the corner... mom asked me to make some paper lotus to burn for dad's DA.. i'll make it twice a year.. once during 'cheng beng', another time dad's DA.. 2009, it's the 7th year since he's gone... i still miss him.. always do.. always will... i miss living around his love.. i miss having him around.. i miss him giving me advices.. i miss his nagging.. i miss his jokes.. i miss his protection.. i miss his guardian.. if only he is still around...

the prayer paper i used to make the lotus

ta-da.. hehe.. not so nice.. it's a bit hard to fold it up.. i dun have delicate fingers.. nid to fold it wif care so it wont tear..

lotus no. 1... 8 more to go...

~the dreamer
(*speechless*)

De-Stressing Nite Out

janice called for girls-nite out aka de-stressing nite out.. i was down wif flu, cough n slight fever, but i was itching for alcohol :P in fact, it was supposed to be a sleepover but due to my condition, i preferred goin home after alcohol.. it was indeed a fun nite.. but i slept thru my saturday n sunday after tt.. hehehe...

janice killed mr spongebob squarepants to de-stress i guess...
hahahahaha...

we started the nite out by having dinner at rakuzen, desapark city..

my sukiyaki pot & beef... yummy..

we drove past zouk twice, went thru the heritage, make an almost illegal u-turn before deciding to stop at poppy wif a bottle of barcardi lemon for the nite.. it was more of a "high" nite rather than drunk...
the girls started singing all sorts of songs, including the secondary skool song in the car even before we reach poppy.. well, we ended up also singing in the car all the way home.. de-stressing indeed :D

~the dreamer
(*high*)

Virgo - Today's Horoscope

jia lat lor! today's horoscope ask me to think bout going on diet lor! wahahahahahahaha....
i shud i shud... i know i definitely shud....


~the dreamer
(*crappy*)

Feeling Suckie

feeling blue.. suckie feeling..
too much of MJ news would be part of the cause..
hhmm.... y am i feeling so blue today....
hormones? could be ya.. sux sux sux...
feel like taking leave..
shud i take leave?
shud i take it next monday or friday?
bleahh... still feeling suckie....
will be goin in a meeting later..
hope the time past quickly so i can go home...
!@##$%$%%*^&*$%^%@$##@!@#~!@#@#%#^%&%^&$%#@
AAARGGHHHHH~~~~~ CRAP!!!!


~the dreamer
(*crappy*)

R.I.P. Michael Jackson - The Icon, The Legend

as usual, i woke up, the first thing i'd do is to turn on the radio while i prepare myself for work.. the sound was soft.. i tot i heard it wrongly.. king of pop, passed away at the age of 50.. while getting ready, i waited for the 8am news on radio... yup... Michael Jackson was gone...

gosh.. we all grew up listening to his songs, watching him do his moves, breakdancing, moonwalk..

there were a lot of negative issues but it was no doubt he was an icon to the music industry and certainly a legend!

i still can remember when i was in kindergarten, teachers would make us sing 'We are the world, we are the children~'.. and how i used to sit in front of tv watching the MV of 'Billy Jean' where the pavement lights on when he walks on it and also the scary 'Thriller'...

i used to be a fan of his when his album 'Dangerous' was out.. a relative brought me to this event where Pepsi organized the Michael Jackson Dangerous dancing competition.. i was nuts over him then.. prolly oso bcoz it was then i found out his bday was juz 2 days after mine.. when he came for his world tour concert in 1996, i wanted to go.. but parents said i was too young.. sigh... there goes the legend....

R.I.P. Michael
(29 August 1958 - 25 June 2009)


1996 Malaysia Concert



We are the World - Solo Version

~the dreamer
(*peace*)

Virgo - Today's Horoscope

see.. i got so bored that i facebook early in the morning.. kakaka...

love: hmmm..... i wonder wat it means...

career: my honesty will not always be appreciated... i should be "lying" at job today.. kekeke..

health: this is so true! i've been havin aches all over since last week leh.. damn..

wealth: hhmm...... meaning i shud invest my money la ya? kekekeke... damn suay & broke.. where got money to invest somemore ler...

craps... i'm crapping at work... gahhh....... i wanan go home... boo hoo hooo~~~


~the dreamer
(*crappy*)

I'm A Unicorn!

i sudah boring sampai nothing to do.. was on FB playing some personality tests.. hahahahaha... tomoro's another day... sigh....

What kind of fantasy creature are you?

While normally associated as a very feminine creature, unicorns are anything but. With their giant horns, unicorns are very battle-ready and can be fierce if they or loved ones are threatened. Unicorns, however, are the least violent of all fantasy creatures. They are very calm, and would prefer to fight a battle with words of wisdom then fighting. They have fast reflexes and love to run. They are generally solitary creatures, but often have a few good friends. Unicorns are very wise and powerful. Some unicorns often grow wings, in which case they are often called pegasuses. Male unicorns can be very fierce, and are normally the color of black coal. They use their horns as swords to spear and impale people, while it also has some healing properties. A few lucky humans have managed to bridle unicorns, in which case they have forced it to do his bidding. But woe to those who dare let their harnasses slip.

~the dreamer
(*boring*)

Lizard's Tail

i was so sorry... all i wanted was to turn on the air-cond.. and suddenly something came dropping on the floor.. wriggling hardly... i was stopped walking towards it as i was shocking, trying to figure out wat was it from a distance.. and realized.. it's a lizard's tail..

i muz have accidentally cut its tail wif the air-cond shutter or something... bleahhh... i tried to get an upclose.. hehe... it is indeed... very disgusting.. i wonder if tt lizard's still alive.. i can see its bone from the tail.. i muz've accidentally cut it way too up... its bleeding a little too..

click on the pic if u wanna see CLOSER view.. dun say i nv warn u..

~the dreamer
(*bleahhh*)

Photo Mood

~the dreamer
(*gloomy*)

Ants Invader

just 1 nite and the ants chewed on my shoe! kns betul! look at it...

mom sprayed the insecticide but on the 2nd day still got ants..

caught in the act

rupa-rupanya, those ants oredi comfortly building its home IN my shoe..
goin in out from the small hole! arrgghhhh!

~the dreamer
(*gloomy*)

Awaiting 6pm :P

yay.. 5.08pm..

duh.. been waiting so long for the clock to hit 5.. now i cant wait it to hit 6 so i can go home...

it's tt day of the month again.. terrible sore back, feeling abit chill, starting to get hungry.. hehehe.. juz ate 2 mini crunch and 2 mini chocolate cookies..

mmm... suddenly this song hitting on my head now.....
~when i'm feeling blue, all i have to do,
is take a look at u, then i'm not so blue
when u're close to me, i can feel ur heart beat,
i can hear u breathing near my ear
wouldn't u agree, baby u n me, got a groovy kind of love~~~

i wanna go home.. i miss my bed... i wanna lie down on my back....
urrgghhh... juz hate tt day of the month... and this is gonna last for another 5 days!
bleaaahhh.....

oooo... hwei is online again :D


~the dreamer
(*aching*)

Raindrops

it was raining in the afternoon... out of curiousity.. i took my camera and go out snapping pics of raindrops.. sigh.. quality not as good.. snapped bout 500+ pics but oni few i really like..

~thedreamer
(*rainy*)

Gloomy

gloomy
the current color of my heart
the feel i'm having now
dark

~the dreamer
(*gloomy*)

Buang "Suay"

nice flower hor?

7 types of flowers

7 types of flowers + water

i had a very "suay" week... really... very very unlucky! i told mom to get me 7 flowers, dun care same color or same type... i juz want a "flower bath" to wash away those bad lucks! anyone have any idea how else can i buang "suay"?? do tell me... aaarrgghhhhhh........

to cool down... i had ice-cream after tt.. hehe.. dun really know if the "flower bath" will work or not.. but i juz nid to release.. i really hate the feeling i'm having now... i'm having so much questions on my mind... aarrgghhh... curse tt "whoever" tt give me this tension.. curse tt f**ker ass full of shits and hemorrhoid!!!!

~the dreamer
(*sucks*)